new song..lemme kno wut u think

Suck my final breath out of me, Spare me the subtleties, Strip me of my innocence literally
My heart is up my sleeve, Fuck the formalities, Fuck everything else you can, but me

Pull this blade out from in, Rusting across my skin, Bleeding the places that you have been
My body's gift to sin, Watching as we begin, Kill me fast or suffer this

Lovingly, you break my plastic heart

This is just a bitter song that enters the world to be sung along
My pathetic words are yours to relate
And I'm just a troubled girl in a thoroughly messed up world
He was just another pretty face

I'll cut your tongue apart, I'll bleed into your heart, Maybe you'll feel my pain
I'll rip into your lips, I practiced upon my wrists, So no other girl will feel your kiss

Frontal labotomy, Forget your memory, Forget that I could exist
Trying so hard to be, The girl of a boyish dream, Caught up in fantasy

Happily, I let my bloody tears run clean

This just is a bitter song that enters the world to be sung along
My pathetic words are yours to relate
And I'm just a troubled girl in a thoroughly messed up world
He was just another pretty face

© me!

k i think its time to update u wit a new song lol lemme kno wut u think...

I don't know how bad it kills each time I swallow these white pills
They keep me numb, They keep me wrong, They keep me right where I belong
Each swallow puts me in my place, Out on a curb with all the waste
They let me know the things I should, I couldn't be loved, I couldn't be good

And I'm takin it all, but will I endure? I cut without concern, I cut without a cure
Don't want one
I've taken it once, I'll take it again, I'll take it alone, I don't need a friend
Don't want one

Maybe life hurts but I can't feel it, When the pills wear off
Maybe I will, Maybe then I might know how much it kills

I can't feel how much it hurts each time you tell me what I'm worth
I've heard it once, I'm ugly still, It helps me swallow these white pills
Your indifference helps them go down nice, And I can fall asleep tonight
You let me hurt the way I should, I couldn't be loved, I couldn't be good

And I'm takin it all, But will I endure? I die without your love, I'll die if I'm not yours
I need you
I've taken it once, I'll take it again, I'll cry all alone, Just like I'll die in the end
I need you

Maybe life hurts but I can't feel it, When the pills wear off
Maybe I will, Maybe then I might know how much it kills

You tell me I'm a worthless bitch, It makes me smile
It feels good to know that I'm a piece of shit
You tell me what I'm good for, Nothing good at all
Tonight I'll know that I can sleep as I feel all the tears fall

Maybe life hurts but I can't feel it, When the pills wear off
Maybe I will, Maybe then I might know how much it kills

And it kills me

© me!!! lol

k umm updates:

today was totally boring. just stayed in and all that jazz. but i dunno i didnt rly feel up to going out neways.

i am pleased to announce that i am completely over my ex :D ever since i started liking that guy i mentioned in my last post, i havent thought bout my ex at all, n now that ive stopped to think bout it, im better off without him neway :) i just rly rly rly hope that i find a boyfriend soon who i can actually have a happy and good relationship with. someone who makes me happy n doesnt hurt me. i dont wanna get hurt again. im terrified. but im willing to risk it...i just hope i dont get hurt

i talked to the guy wednesday night n i FINALLY got him to tell me who he likes (he's insisted that he doesn't like neone for a while now). cuz i told him i was over my ex n all that stuff n that i liked someone now n he seemed all excited n he kept asking who i like. n i told him i'd tell him who i like if he told me who he likes...n he said he likes me...n i said "i dont believe you" n i still think he was joking but i want to believe he likes me...i wanna believe it soooo badly. but i told him i like him. n hes like "well that works out well"...ughh omg ive got it bad....i can't stop thinking about him...im so scared he was joking, he swore he wasnt but i dunno.. n if he wasnt..im scared of getting hurt in the future

this all sounds so childish...everythin...but i can't help it. gahhhhhhhh i dunno...ive been waiting...n suddenly i just realized that the perfect guy ive been looking for was right in front of me....IT FEELS SO GOOD TO HAVE HOPE...

i don't want it to get taken away again :( i wanna cry just thinking about it cuz i am soooo scared....n i cant control whether or not i get hurt.... i wish i was a better person...a person deserving of good things...cuz then i would b happy....but i dont think i deserve it.... I'M TRYING :(

i just wanna be happy

damn happy couples

im sick and tired of bitchy perfect looking girls...cuz i wish i was them..minus the bitchy...

im like freakin IN LOVE with this guy who's becoming closer and closer friends with me as the year is passing. n sometimes i think he likes me, n other times i dont think so...i get so confused.....n soooo many mixed messages

:( </3